I am a mother. A mother of three tiny little monsters who create mayhem. Everyday. Their curious minds and adventurous bodies keep me running. From sun up, until sun down, our days are filled with love and mayhem. So, what is a mom to do, embrace it all? What else is she to do, but enjoy this God given bounty and let it fill her up?
All I ever wanted was to be a mother and now that these dreams are true, I can not imagine it any other way, but there are moments. Moments when I lock myself in the bathroom for thirty seconds of quiet (until little fingers poke under the door). Moments when snacks are snuck and I think I am losing my mind…one missed nap at a time.
Sometimes, it is all I have to get up in the morning after a rough night. Or to keep going in the middle of the day when everyone is tired, cranky and in need of those missed naps. It’s usually in those moments that I find my inner strength. The truth of who I really am. My truth is in the way I respond to the mayhem, with love (and there are times the truth is inpatient, exhausted, and barely hanging on, but even in that time, there is love).
Then there are moments that undo me. When I see my daughter help my son. When they are making a fort of blankets and couch cushions to play for hours on end. Quiet moments when I catch them whispering together while laying underneath the trampoline. Perfect moments when they show unrestrained joy and love for one another. Small moments when I realize I just may be doing something right. When I give myself some grace and allow myself to feel at peace.
So, momma, hang in there. Take your moments to take care of you. Hide in the bathroom if you need to or sneak those snacks that you have hidden in the sock drawer (shh, I won’t tell). Find those moments that are full of bounty and beauty. Give yourself grace.
Find love in the mayhem.
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